It all boils down to who was there.

Tonight I could have leaned against Francis the whole night. Indeed, the temptation to just lie in his arms and not move was overwhelming. But he didn't and I didn't, so nothing happened.

It's not that I want him to be by my side. But you're right, you've a busy life to lead and I suppose I've to find my support group elsewhere. Just don't regret that you pushed me away with that nonchalance and coldness. I'm childishly taking revenge but who cares.